Our experience started online, as many of my experiences with guys do. We had only been messaging for a couple of hours about things that left no impression on my memory when he asked me out. I really shouldn't be dating right now, but the overwhelming fragment of myself that's afraid of loneliness doesn't seem to understand that men can't fix the bruised places within me. The past handful of years have been filled with an endless string of guys I've expected to make me feel better in the ways I can't seem to feel on my own. This is what brought me to him, and to me asking if he'd like to do something the following night.